return

I debated about my return. The conditions I left under were not the greatest. I mean who runs away from a kiss? Me! Thats who. It was a simple kiss. Innocent even but it took me by surprise and there was so much more I had to deal with that I didnt even tell him goodbye when I left. Now that I have returned, I wonder what he will say. Will he be angry? Surprised? Happy or am making to much out of the whole thing? After all we have been friends since I was just a little kid. Only time will tell..time

Death

My brother died.
I dont know all the details but I did receive word that I needed to come home. Even now that I am here I dont know all the details.
I have met with a scribe that explained more than anyone else. I have been given the receipts for the bank. There is even more money than I would have thought.
Yet he is gone. I dont know what to do. I walk around the house, I look out at the forge and feel nothing. I have no desire to work. No desire to go back out there and do anything. I want to crawl into the couch and cry. I want to stay there until every thing goes back to normal.
************more to come later. *********

Dinner

Nothing stays the same. While he might appear to the be the guy that along with my brother tormented me endlessly while growing up, Dominick has changed. He isnt that boy anymore and I am not that little girl. Though when he is around I do feel tongue tied and like I am two years old again and waiting for him or Jacob to start laughing at me. I wish I knew why he made me so nervous. Why things felt so awkard at times and others it is like he has been with me every day.
Dinner was great. I have never seen so many people all dressed up and even the slaves looked like their clothing cost more than I would make in a month. Still it is something I will not soon forget.

a note

Sometimes thats what I want to say. People are always yelling wanting something done immediately.

I dont understand why they are in such a hurry. Life is to short. They should learn to take the time to see the beauty in everything yet I know that isnt likely to happen.

I woke up this morning with a note and pouch beside the couch. Dominick had come in while I was sleeping and left it for me. I must admit I was suprised. One by the fact he left me something, two the fact he was in the room when I was sleeping. Hope I wasnt snoring or drooling, that would be horrible.

Anyway, he is taking me to dinner and told me to go shopping. I have no idea what to get. Being raised by my brother didnt mean alot of quality time in shops. We would pick up what we needed at the market and come home. I think in my whole life I have owned one set of robes. Jacob always said with the work we do, I didnt need those things. Now it seems I am expected to find something fitting for dinner.

Problem is I dont know whats fitting.

One day over and I can relax. I started working this morning, the vat is nearly finished if the two men working for me would listen to what I said instead of second guessing me we could be finished much earlier. His slave came to get me. I have to say this one is much better than the one I met earlier. this one he called soap. She seems to work hard and is very attentive the other one, I think he said her name was Aurel or something is in need of much training. We were sitting there talking and she ask to leave he said not yet, and believe it or not she got up and left anyway. I told him today that while I would not dare to tell a man how to keep his slaves, that one was bad egg and needed training or simply sold. He said she had issues. I laughed a slave with issues? Dont they all? Either way, that is one I would not mind if I never had to set eyes on again.

morals

My morals are constructed....................In a glass frame above my bed................My mother pounding the nail into the wall................Gritting her teeth................Father never speaking of it but................Eyes the frame as he passes....................My open door.............I clean the glass.............Straighten it when it goes off center.............Show it off to you.............I won’t let it shatter................It goes crooked............Rattles from an outside force..........I move it from wall to wall...............But I won’t let it shatter

Dominick

Ar. It was not exactly what I expected nor was Dominick for that matter. I have not seen him in over 8 years yet seeing him again was like he had been there the whole time.

He seems convinced my brother Jacob had an ulterior motive but she didnt believe it. She was here to do a job and now one that was leading her off to Port Cos, the time table unknown. The plus side of things was that she would be working for herself. Her very first job that was all her own.